I feel farther away then ever. I feel lost. I dread night time only because it is what gets the best of me. Sitting alone in the dark with no one there to help you get through it is one of the toughest things ever. These past few days have been so stressful, with Kims dad & me being upset about my recent fall outs with friends, I just can’t seem to focus, everything is becoming one big blur. Their words literally eat away at me, they’re constantly ringing in my head, over and over again, it never stops or goes away. During the day I try to block it out, but when it’s late & I’m alone in my room, that’s when things start to fall apart for me. That’s when things continuously replay in my head and it makes it even harder for me to fall asleep. I just want to forget everything, forget everything I’ve ever learned, forget everyone I’ve ever met, forget how to exist, just completely forget everything. I want to sleep away until I know that this is all over, but I can’t even do something as simple as fall asleep. Anyways, yeah.